So, I decided to take advice from my therapist and "test my anxiety".

(Anyone who knows me well, knows I have a serious anxiety problem that has been worsening. And I'm finally on meds for it!<3)

He supports me completely with what I want to do.

For many reasons, I decided that it's time for a job.
My family has been pushing me to get one since I turned 15. I'll be 17 on February 5th. -_-

I'm getting this job so a) I can test my anxiety, b) I can afford everyone's Xmas presents, and c) I can have a little bit of spending money to myself!

I went down to this restaurant by my house to apply, but they currently have no openings. They let me give them my info though, and I made it clear that I lived right up the road. ^.^ But let me tell you this, I was a nervous wreck just walking in to apply. It's because I hate/am afraid of all changes, but I suppose if I ever get the job, I'd just have to get used to it. And then all shall be well? Hopefully.

But yeah. I plan on applying somewhere down by my school. It'll give me a reason to get out therapy. Mike straight-up said they couldn't keep me there anymore if I had a job to go to. So I guess that's the other reason I want one. xD Enough is enough, right?

Anywhos. I want to go on a Goodwill adventure with for cosplay related things. And to find more shirts and stuff to cut up and turn into new clothing. That's always fun.I actually have tons of things that I need for the creation of new things. I have some stuff planned, just don't have the needed materials. Hahaha

My family has been sick a lot lately. We keep re-infecting each other with nasty viruses and head colds. My brother lost his voice the other day due to phlegm blockage. O___o But no swine flu thankfully. ^.^

I'm not feeling to great tonight (physically), and I've got a big day planned for tomorrow while my siblings are in school. It should be fun.

I keep having strange dreams. And yeah yeah, I've ALWAYS had strange dreams, but lately (or ever since I've been on sleep meds) they've been even stranger. In a way that I can't even explain. And the worst part is, my strange dreams always used to sometimes be decent and good dreams, now they're all awful and terrifying. I've had nightmares for like, ever now. But these are so different. And it's every single night without breaks in between like I used to get. -_- The dream I had last night was the most disturbing and disgustingly bloody/violent dream I've ever had. If anyone can interpret dreams, note me. I'm very curious about this dream and I just can't stop thinking about it.

DJ Hero is amazing. And I'm pretty good at it. ^^ Unfortunately, my brother is bringing it back tomorrow. =/ I plan on buying it eventually though ^^ I want to try out expert mode. I can do pretty good on hard.

Ugh I had more to write, but my headache is so bad right now and the light of this screen is just making it worse. xD Not that many people read this anyways. ^^ DA journals are simply to organize thoughts really. Kinda like a checklist. Haha makes me think of the ConnectiCon checklist. You know what I'm talking about Nikki. It's just good to have my thoughts together. ^^ Especially when they're thoughts I don't mind anyone reading. I also don't mind if no one takes a look at this. It's not like it's important or anything. ^.^

Gahhhh headache. Toooodleeeesss